I didn't really know how I felt about the US presidential election until the day before, when I thought Hillary might actually win. It was a heavy and distressed feeling. It isn't easy to explain everything which informed that feeling, and I doubt even a long answer would be enough to convince an ardent 'progressive'. The issues in which Clinton has played a leading role involve intensive social programming and mountains of lies from the media, State Department, and those who mindlessly repeat their talking points.
Many progressives have expressed (and kept on expressing) their shock at how Trump could have won. To them, Trump represents all that is wrong with our world. In their eyes he's a racist, xenophobic, sexist homophobe who brings out the worst in people. But the world is not as black and white as it is often presented. It takes a sincere desire to uncover the truth, and that includes taking a look at our long-held beliefs, which takes time and requires a sincere effort to understand the world. It requires seriously considering the possibility that we're wrong, that we don't have the entire picture, and that perhaps our strongly held opinions are not as justified as we think. That's hard.
The ways in which Hillary Clinton would have been much more destructive than Trump are legion. She's been involved in more scandals during her public life than (almost) any other US politician (and that says a lot!). There was
Whitewater,
Travelgate,
Filegate,
Chinagate,
Vince Foster's mysterious death, her assistant
Huma Abedin's family ties to the Muslim Brotherhood, and
Benghazi. Then there were the emails that led to dozens more scandals involving the
sending of classified material over unsecured servers,
DNC voter fraud, getting presidential
debate questions from CNN, Clinton Foundation donors getting
special access to the State Department, and the
millions upon millions donated from terrorist-sponsors like Saudi Arabia, Qatar and the United Arab Emirates. Oh, and in case you were lucky enough to forget, there was that super creepy
'spirit-cooking' thing involving the Podestas. The list goes
on and on, but even these signs of deep corruption don't describe the worst of Hillary Clinton.